Finding the Seeker
- Sep 7, 2022
- 2 min read
Updated: 13 hours ago
One day, as I was sitting outdoors drinking coffee, and enjoying the lovely weather we were having, I came upon a passage by Adyashanti in his book, The Impact of Spiritual Awakening. He said that the pull we feel to seek is coming from what we are seeking. He also said that what we were seeking out there can only be found within.
I immediately knew this was true and began to cry. As I sat there happy and sad at the same time a great calm came over me. I don't know how long that feeling lasted, but it didn't stay, and I wondered why that was. Why couldn't I hang on to that feeling? If it was the truth and I had finally found the truth, then why didn't I always feel connected to the truth?
Eventually I realized that whenever that feeling rose within me, all I needed to do was to be STILL. This doesn't mean the feeling of connection stays, it means that the only time I can connect is in the moment.
In the beginning, sitting still was extremely difficult, but with practice I learn to be still for longer periods of time - therefore, the connection stayed with me longer. All it takes is willingness, commitment, determination, and patience.
Learning to sit for longer periods of time came slowly. Sitting for longer than five minutes at a time was difficult when I first started learning to meditate. However, the more I sat the longer I was able to sit; even if that commitment is for five minutes at a time. I can find five minutes to sit throughout the day - every day.
So, if you are seeking, or maybe you have connected with the Seeker - practice sitting throughout your day for 5 or 10 minutes. Set a timer with a bell instead of an alarm (I use the free version of the Insight Timer app), and when you get frustrated, or are interrupted - start again and again, and again. Don't give up, because frustration and interruptions are part of the mental process. Until you learn to settle, settling will be... unsettling.
Remember, be gentle with yourself, and know that the Seeker is patiently waiting within you. Five minutes, five breaths, five beats of the heart is all it takes to connect.
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