When My Normal Feels Too Small

These last few days I have felt very disconnected – upset stomach, low energy, not smiling, or maybe it’s that I’m just discontent. Life isn’t very exciting - which is normal. I remind myself of this. The ordinariness of life is life. Yet, I will say that my normal has pretty low-level. I’m sure that people have a higher-level normal life. I’m just not at a higher level. Sometimes I feel low when I ponder all the years, I’ve spend trying to create a higher-level normal life. A life that feels satisfying because I am able to use my creative intuitive gifts.  I’m 68 years old; there’s not much time left to raise the bar to feel that I am living a happier normal.

I watch video after video of other people sewing, creating, and living hoping that one day I will be able to do those things. Yet, I can do those things – right now. I just don’t believe in my ability to do so. I mean, I can do it, but can I sell it?

Seth Godin says, create and ship. Create and ship, create and ship, create and ship.

Selling isn’t creating. An artist creates to create, not to sell. It’s a fine line. I need an income yet my creative desire is strong.

So, I will continue to blog, work on developing the Aloha and Ho’oponopono workshops to share with others.

When I’m on fire it’s because I’m aligned with my purpose which is to encourage and support others to achieve, they’re higher-level normal. It’s not about selling.

This is where I am right now. Maybe you’re here too.